Goth no wrimo

Usually I am excited about National Novel Writing Month which is in November. However a while back I got an email reminding me of Gothic Novel Writing month ( a NANO spin off) for October! I thought it would be rather fun to do. November is somewhat tainted now as many of you know about my dad. So I was more than pleased when I got the message about Goth No in October! I can still do the whole novella (I'm only going for 30K) in a month without the other damaging baggage. I can not believe it has been 11 months since my dad was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer and that it is now almost 8 since he died! Sometimes life sucks!
Ok, I am going to try and recover to the blissful place of writing!
Anyway, October 1st begins Gothic novel writing month!!! Excitement! I have no story idea yet or characters. I have a glue book page done to inspire me. That is about it! Maybe I should drag out the Poe for inspiration.

Crap

I feel like crap. Maybe I'm depressed. It's weird. I feel creative yet I feel like burying myself under the covers or curling up on my sofa and NEVER leaving my house again except to go grocery or craft supply shopping! What is that about!? Is there such a thing as selective depression?

Why am I sad? I don't know. I think I still need time away from all this around where I live. Sometimes I feel like I need a TOTALLY new scene. Everything- church, apt, job, city to live in-- Maybe it's not sadness so much as a total loss of interest in most things in my regular life.

Eco by JL Denman

Over on Sunflower Ranch- this picture was posted as a writing challenge. Here is my off the cuff 3 minute poem to go with it.

Eco by JL Denman sept. 17, 2009

So alive

so in love

so deeply enamored of your grace

so serene

so deliciously green

so peaceful

so

so

so

so deep in touch

so vibrant

so divinly attached to the universe

so

so

so

so

so much more than life

so much more than peace

so much more placid, tranquil, enveloping

so

so

so

so

so

so beyond my expectations

so beyond my desires

so beyond the petty violence of puny people

so

so

so

so

so

so

so divine

so simplistic

so powerful in all your majesty

so entwined in love and earth

Vine- lead us to serenity

Creative juices

I haven't felt much like making anything for ages. I've made a few pieces here and there. Yesterday and today, however, after rocky out-of-place feelings I made a few sets. I made one bracelet, necklace, earring set from smokey quartz and mother of pearl. I started a necklace with a huge piece of amber glass and then lots of tiger eye daggers and rounds. I finished that piece this afternoon. I then made the brown & amber glass set. I made a pair of raku earrings and a pair of dyed purple agate nugget earrings with silver plated beads. Tomorrow I will take photos and post.




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I need a total change of scenery and place. I feel totally out of place being back from St. Croix. Some many things seem wrong or overly stressful. I can't even go into them. It's just this overwhelmign feeling- this all encompassing feeling of I don't want to be here, I NEED to be somewhere else.